Okay, I am going to try to keep a very long story somewhat short and to the point...
My whole life I have lived with manifestations and "guidance" from beings that I believed to be ghosts- spirits of the deceased. Recently I have come to the realization that these beings are most likely of an evil sort, tricksters, trying to lead me down a path of self destruction, and ultimately away from God and Jesus... So, in my quest of spiritual discovery and biblical learning I feel like I have been thrown to the wolves so to speak by going up against things that I have been ill prepared for from my lack of education in Bible teachings.. I have a good support system from a great friend who is well learned so I am not totally alone, but I am looking for some further insight...
As I went back through my life and picked apart all that has happened- from seeing "friendly" manifestations to listening to their insight and hearing and believing in the future which they foretell-- I definitely think that I was under the influence of demon activity.. There are too many instances to tell, but they seem to be often times alcohol driven and most of the time they appear to be helping and beneficial, even sometimes mentioning God and church. Anyway, since I have "found them out" the manifestations are few, but scary, no longer friendly and helpful. I had one instance in my bedroom of thousands of Black, flying insects which I called on Jesus for help and spoke the words "I rebuke you in the name of Jesus Christ" and they all instantly disappeared just like flipping a switch.. Other than that I have had numerous demon infested nightmares. Now I know that nightmares are not necessarily visions or anything more than an active imagination, but some of them seem so real and always very detailed. I am only going to recount my most recent one which was two nights ago...
I was in my grandmother's house (she is suffering the final stages of Alzheimer's disease and we as a family all take care of her) and out of her bathroom comes an ancient old man who appeared to be wheelchair bound.. But instantly I know that he is a demon, either in human form or possessing a human I don't know, but definitely a demon... So, though I know better I engage in physical combat with him hitting and kicking and screaming, "I rebuke you in the name of Jesus Christ" over and over. Nothing is working on this demon. And oddly enough he is not fighting back with fists or words. I notice that the "old man" form is not bleeding or bruising or responding in any way and I wonder why it's not working. So as not to give up I go to my Bible to find where I have gone wrong. Before getting there a voice in the room sneers "Jesus has left you." And I think to myself in the dream, not aloud, that's not possible, Jesus would never do that. So I go to my Bible, and without any hindrance of any kind I find my way to the index and to the "R's" and look up rebuke and suddenly my Bible is no longer a Bible but a story book of a boy and a demon called "Scandal." The demon says "do you see how you let me in" to the boy, pop, staying up all hours of the night etc." And then I know that the demon I am confronting is the demon scandal. Of course he is, how will it look if I am caught abusing an old man, scandalous.. So, I go back to the "old man" and I call him by name. "Demon Scandal, I REBUKE YOU IN THE NAME OF JESUS CHRIST." And suddenly when called out the body of the old man lurches up right and appears to be struggling and breaking and then I wake up...
I don't know what to take from this dream. I have thought of different things. One-- Jesus is the factor of course and without him I am not going to defeat any demon. Two- when in need God led me to the answers I needed to succeed, through the Bible. Three- Was it a test of faith?
I don't know what kind of path I am on. I'm scared sometimes of demonic oppression in my life, especially where my husband and children are concerned. My one child seems unaffected but the other I have attributed demons for his anger and rage, which has subsided greatly with prayers. Like I said, I have a great friend and she helps me always, but I am looking for some other opinions if anyone knows things about this subject. I have read so many websites that I can't tell heads from tales about taking on demons. Some sites say, Don't touch it, don't even think about it. Others say that with Christ as a guide rebuking demons is something that Christians do. But the dangers involved are immense. I want to be knowledgeable in scripture but I really don't know where to start. Any ideas? And thanks in advance...