Hi Everyone,
I have a testimony that I would like to share with those who are willing to read this. For a while I have been really down, depressed and frustrated. Mainly because I lost my brother tragically 6 months ago and I felt like God could have spared him. So I was angry with God for a while.... On March 10th, I was having a very bad day, I spent the day with my mother and I cried all day long. She and I had a discussion and I questioned God's love for me and whether or not he truly cared about what our family was going through. My family has always been God fearing and I felt like God betrayed us by allowing our brother/son to drown. There are also other things that are going on in my life that has been very difficult for me to deal with...
Well On Wed March 11th, I went to work. I work for the county jail here in my city and on the 11th, I worked on the female floor. The females went to recreation for an hour around 7pm, at about 8:15, the females came back upstairs and one female inmate approached me and asked me if she could speak to me privately. I said sure assuming that something had went wrong inside of thier modules. This inmate said to me " I dont know you and you dont know me. I dont know what's going on in your life, but the Lord told me to tell you when I came back on the floor that he has you and dont worry".
I was so shocked when she said this to me, and at first I though she was just playing/lying. But then I thought about the things I said the night before and everything that I was going through and I realized that had to be God speaking to me through her. Since then I have felt better and have more hope about my life. I have also made peace with God and have asked him to forgive me for the way I felt towards him and the things that I have said. Even though I miss my brother terribly, I know that my brother was saved and I believe that he is in paradise with God, I'm trusting the Lord that he had a reason for allowing what happen to him. I'm also trying my best to totally trust him with my life and to answer my prayers.